MY FIRST JOB

So today i had an interview at toys r us and I'm proud to say i got the job, they said they liked my bubbly personality and the way i approached people!! YAY ME!! So i have orientation on Monday the 6th and then i don't know when i start after that but my hours for now are 4am to 10am and then three weeks after that they said it was switch to 10pm to 6am im really exited!!

Friends

Well lately ive been having a couple friends from high school over and its been fun. One of them is going through some tough times with guys and i feel bad for her cause i dont know how to help her. I am happy though that im over that and have a loving husband who loves me big or small mad or sad, happy or gone lol. But then when she comes over she kindof mopes around and i hate to see her hurt cause then i hurt cause i cant do anything about it. I wish i could just get enough guts to invite her to church and show her hat god has a plan for everyone and he doesnt hand you anything that you cant handle even if you think you cant handle it. The only problem with that is the girl she hangs out with is a member but refuses to go to church because of rumurs then went on i love her to and just wish that she could realise that we cant stop people from talking but we can giving them things to talk about...The church is true and i know that and i know with all my heart that if i could just get her to go to church and to feel the spirit that she would know the true gospel and know that god is helping her through all this even if it hurts.

DEMO DURBY!!!

Well last week we had a Spanier get together and we went to the rush city demo Derby. We were really hesitant to bring Ella cause she is really restless but i think she had fun besides being forced to sleep my mommy he he she hates that. Anyway we had Logan there and he loved it also then brads brother Mike and his fiance Denesa brought there kids Anika and Braydon they also had a lot of fun. They all had fun going potty together since Logan is 1/2 potty trained i say that because he still wont poop on the potty! Oh well. Anyway so Ryan and Jen where there to (Brads brother and sister in law) and so were Nana and Papa spanier so it was fun we got full of mud from the trucks spiting it at us!!! So here are some pics.

I love my hubby

So since Ive been looking for so many jobs and actually putting effort into it my husband decided to by me some flowers and they aren't like any Ive seen i was so excited cause he NEVER does that just out of the blue usually i have to hint for them and girl we all know we don't like them as much when we ask! RIGHT! Anyway so here are a couple pics of them i just love them they are two of my Favorite colors. So here are two pics.

hard work..... literally

So the past few days and a few last week i have been working my butt of to find a job. Ive never worked so hard in my life to find a job. All i keep hearing is I'm sorry but you don't have enough experience.....Well first off Ive never held a job before unless you consider helping my mom with a paper route which was supposed to be mine but never got payed because she did all the driving so it went to gas. Anyway i volunteered at a old folks home when i was about 11 but really didn't do anything that has experience for jobs I'm looking at today. How do people expect you to have experience if no one will give you a chance and let you get experience.... Brad and i are going to be out of our apartment the end of November (it was supposed to be the end of October but the landlord is trying to make herself more money and made up some lie saying we didn't give her proof that we were leaving at the end of our lease which we did i talked to her on the phone but whatever!!!) Anyway so we don't want to live here anymore but we don't want collections down our back when we are trying to find a house we can live in fix up and move in 6-10 years. I did finally get a call today from toys r us and have an interview September 30Th at 11:30 but i am so bad at interviews its not even funny!!! I choke up and forget what I'm going to say, is it bad if i bring a note book??? Anyway Brad has been wanting me to get a job for some time now since its always me wanting to go shopping and i understand his point so now I'm really trying... I just wish i could find someone who owns something and work for them. Then i can prove I'm a good worker and will be able to make money to help support my family. Well pray that i will get the job and do just fine at the interview love you all thanks!

We will miss you uncle kevin

Have you heard the song "waiting on a women" Well I think of my uncle kevin when i hear this song now. Here are the lyrics for thoes of you who dont know them. The verses in red are what i think Uncle kevin is doing.

Sittin' on a bench at West Town Mall
He sat down in his overalls and asked me
You waitin' on a woman
I nodded yeah and said how 'bout you
He said son since nineteen fifty-two I've been
Waitin' on a woman

When I picked her up for our first date
I told her I'd be there at eight
And she came down the stairs at eight-thirty
She said I'm sorry that I took so long
Didn't like a thing that I tried on
But let me tell you son she sure looked pretty
Yeah she'll take her time but I don't mind
Waitin' on a woman

He said the wedding took a year to plan
You talk about an anxious man, I was nervous
Waitin' on a woman
And then he nudged my arm like old men do
And said, I'll say this about the honeymoon, it was worth it
Waitin' on a woman

And I don't guess we've been anywhere
She hasn't made us late I swear
Sometimes she does it just 'cause she can do it
Boy it's just a fact of life
It'll be the same with your young wife
Might as well go on and get used to it
She'll take her time 'cause you don't mind
Waitin' on a woman

I've read somewhere statistics show
The man's always the first to go
And that makes sense 'cause I know she won't be ready
So when it finally comes my time
And I get to the other side
I'll find myself a bench, if they've got any
I hope she takes her time, 'cause I don't mind
Waitin' on a woman

Honey, take your time, cause I don't mind
Waitin' on a woman


Do you ever wonder when someone dies if they ever are looking down at you to see if you are crying because of there death....I do and I feel like a jerk when i cant get myself to cry. Today my uncle kevin died and i heard the news and cried but it was for a short time and then i just stoped...I loved him and will miss even though i didn't get to know him very well hes been in my life for 20 years and in my family for many more. He will be missed very much but maybe im not crying because i know hes not suffering anymore with his illness and that he is in a better place. Pray for my family that we will all find peace and beable to laugh about the good times with him.

WE LOVE YOU UNCLE KEVIN!!!

Stake confrence

Well brad and I had the privilege of going to stake conference on Saturday night and Sunday morning with out the kids. We also were able to go to the new member meeting which was really cool to listen too and feel the spirit. Bishop Edgley was an amazing speaker and we were very blessed to have him speak at brads "first" Member state conference. He has been to one or two but not as a member. Bishop Edgley asked a question Saturday night to the congregation, He asked what have you learned in your trials and your tribulations (not exactly what he said i couldn't remember it all or exactly how he said it) Anyway people stood up and expressed what they had learned through they trials, I was going to stand up and express my gratitude to my church members for helping me through my teen pregnancy and not shutting me out, I hear from so many people that they don't go to church anymore because to many rumors went on. All I have to say to them is its the true church but the true church doesn't only except perfect people, Rumors will happen weather your here or not. I have a saying on my myspace, "people are going to talk, so why not give them something to talk about" I know that's not the right thing to do but people wont talk if you don't give them anything to talk about. I know there was rumors going on around the church about me being pregnant and not married, At first I let it affect me but my awesome mother told me that I needed to find for myself if the church is true, and if I will find that then I wont have to worry about the rumors because they wont affect me anymore because I will know why I am supposed to be there. Now look at me 3 years later I'm nursery leader and loving every minute of it, I am happily married to a wonderful man who GETS me, I have two BEAUTIFUL children that even though its hard to be with them all day everyday I would give my life to save them so they can raise their children in the church.

For those of you that were there on Saturday, A women stood and asked what she could do to bring her friends to the church without pushing them away, In response Bishop Edgley asked who the most recent convert was and it just happened to be Brad (which he didn't want to raise his hand) and he had to stand in front of the congregation, Bishop Edgley then asked him if he forgave me for introducing him to the church, He whole heartily said NO!!! Later I asked him why and he said no and he was so nervous that he didn't really even listen to the question and so he didn't answer it right, But then Bishop Edgley asked again after we all had a good laugh "do you forgive your wife for introducing you to the church" and Brad said "Yes" it really made me realize what miracle I did by bringing my husband to the church and having two beautiful children and raising them in the true church they only true church on this earth.

Logan and Ella stayed at brad's mom's so it was fun to have a night to ourselves since it had been about 6 months since our last night alone. But now that we are back to reality and had some time off we are set to be parents again. I have to admit its been hard the past couple weeks, with things my family has been going through. I've had to stop and ask for help from my church members with concerns in my head and if it was OK to feel the way I was feeling. But I learned that I can't take things to seriously which for those of you who know me that's hard for me, very hard.... But not so much to take them to seriously, but don't take what people do for only themselves and be mad at them, because sometimes they can't help it.

For those of you who don't know my family is going through some hard times and we are having to put faith in our lord Jesus Christ more then we ever had. We pray that you will keep us in your prayers and in your hearts.

All day at the hospital again

So brad had to go back to the hospital today again because it was swollen really bad again. So when we got to the clinic we waited and waited cause they had to fit us in. So anyway then the doctor had to check it out and he was stumped he didnt know what it was so he sent us to the hospital to get an ultrasound and then to see the uroligist (which i cant spell) anyway so we were joking that if he had to get it removed that he get fixed while we was doing the surgery hehe we also saw jon nue so it was funny that we got to see him in the hospital. The lady that did the ultrasound didnt think we were too funny we asked for a picture like you get when you get the ultrasounds of babies and she didnt think that was funny!!! How dare she right lol we said we were kidding and she didnt laugh i really dont like nurses or doctors who dont joke. We are in their for something serious and we just want to joke around cause if you dwell on the pain to long it will get you down, so we joke about you know what i mean. Anyway the nurse we had was awesome! I loved her i was so excited to have someone that would laugh with us. Brad had to go pee three times because first we did it at the clinic then got sent to the hospital and then they needed one and then that tube was cracked and had leaked so then they needed another one. He was put on a shot with antibiotics in it then was put on more antibiotics for three weeks but if the swelling isnt gone by tomarrow we need to bring him back in on wednesday. Man we need insurance!!! Anyway so god is with us and we know he wont give us anything we cant handle. God is good i love him please keep us in your prayers.

Another day at grandma's

This is logan riding on his bike in the trailer behind the tractor
OK so there is a story behind my favorite dog in the world (who has a heart, kind of) So today brad and i went to my moms and helped my dad in the garden pulling up corn stalks and hoses and black plastic. When i was pulling up the last piece of black plastic i hear baby mice and not even two seconds later here's Maci grabbing the first pile she saw and took off with the baby mice and ate them YAY for her OK now her the funny part. After doing that we went to the fire pit to take out the box springs that were burned and maci found another mouse but it was a bigger one. She picked it up did her swinging thing to make sure it was dead and she lost it so i had to show her where it was. Then she picked it up again made sure it was dead all the way then went to the fire pit started to dig a whole and BARRIED it!!! What a sweet little doggy, she wanted to give the mouse a properal barrial. How cute is that! I love this dog.This is Ella on the way home from brads moms on the same day
This is logan also on the way home from brads moms

Pictures from this summer

Well Brad and i just found our camera so now i can finally add pictures to update everyone.
The Family at the zoo Logan and Ella being cute on the train.
Logan eating Ice cream I just love the backs of them walking its really precious.
Logan Got to get this close to a bear at age 2!
Daddy's tired after a long day.
So is Ella...
But not logan he's wide awake!
This is how Ella looked for about 3 weeks cause her and Logan both got sinus infections at the same time.
Logan Ella and Bailey
This is where Logan slept in IL cause he didnt like his room. (in our closet on the floor)
Gangster El Bell
She actually fell asleep! In the Shredder bucket!
This is my best friend since birth Sadie and Logan and her sisters wedding reception.
Ella riding her doggy Macy!
Logan at the county fair in IL We got to see the animals he was pretty excited about it.
Logan with the pigs at the fair.
Ella's Hair that i did myself! YAY ME!
Ella swimming all by herself!! She was 8 months!!!
This is all the farther logan would go in the pool before having a heart attack.
Logan and Bailey chillin on the couch. They did that a lot.
Ella standing on her own for only the second time.
Logan is playing Wii with daddy. With his eyes closed HEHE he's so talented! HAHA